Reality is perception. The Illusion of Reality goes beyond the perceptions of our life.

Those of us who want to understand the purpose of life often wonder or ask about these important parts of our lives. Those of us who have lost loved ones often hope there are answers, or ways to communicate.
Others are simply curious about the paranormal, but there are yet others who have had life-long experiences they either do not understand, or perhaps are not sure of. There are answers, and it all starts with awareness – of ourselves, our lives and the time and space dimensions in which we live.

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Our perception and experience of our life in time is only as fixed as we believe it is. Time is not fixed, and nor are you. Time can be rewritten depending on the power of the Inner sound you become aware of.

As we start to become aware of the illusion of this reality, people often ask me – “What is my purpose?” and “Why am I here?”

And my response is the same – The awareness of your purpose is equal to your awareness of what you are.

The more you remember “what” you are, the more you remember what your purpose is. The more you discover “what” you are, the more you discover what it needs you to do, and why you are here.

Without awareness, one is travelling a purposeless no-journey. If you want to start your journey with purpose, you need to start to remember. Remembering is the most natural thing in the world to do – after all, it is remembering all that you really are beneath the illusion of consciousness.

If one does not remember, then there is only the journey of life, and a journey of life alone has no meaning, and is therefore a purposeless no-journey.

And so purpose and awareness go hand-in-hand. You cannot fulfil your purpose without being aware of the “what” you really are.

Then the question is asked, “Then how do I remember, how to I become aware?” And the answer is simple – you have to let go of your image of ‘you’. You have to quieten your mind, slow your brain, leave memory and expectations behind. Go deeper beneath the busyness of your thoughts and your life.

Life is full of images, stresses and pressures. Expectations of oneself, expectations of family and even your work or friends. Expectations of life itself.

And so the only way to become aware is to be quite within. To give your inner voice a chance to speak. To give your real feelings a chance to be felt with clarity – simply, an intent to know “what” you are.

How you do that is up to you. Guided meditation, such as those available at The Journey Home are the most effective way to let go of the outer, and reveal the state of inner awareness. However, it doesn’t matter how or where you do it, it just matters that you do.

Perhaps you can be quite within by sitting up in bed at night and finding peaceful reflection in the quiet of your own space, or perhaps you prefer to sit in a park. Perhaps you sit at the ocean side, or just take time out on the couch. You don’t need to sit cross-legged on a mat, you don’t need crystals or incense or gongs or mantras. You don’t need outer tools or images, you just need you.

I offer guided meditation because it is the most effective way to channel one’s intent into a deeply calm and inner space, and guide the outer mind into its most natural inner state.

What matters is that you want to be in touch with “what” you are, to be in touch with your inner being, so that it may speak to you, show you what you need to see. So you can connect with the inner light that you are and begin to gain clarity and awareness .. and the purpose will follow.

My wife Diane appeared to me yesterday in response to a discussion I had with someone asking about how to find the way they needed to go on their journey. Diane told me this analogy, which I would like to share with you .. “Inner energy is like a message written on the bottom of a beautiful pond. But you cannot read the message until the waters on top are very, very still and calm.”

… That is why we must find a quiet place within ourselves to reflect, to remember, to become aware. Then, and only then, will purpose prevail.”

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Our hopes and aspirations are often diminished when the sameness enters our lives again and again. However, the reality we live in can only be seen for what it is when the energy of awareness from beyond our perception, beyond the illusion of life, enters to deliver what is “real”. One such communication came in the early waking hours a few days ago …

“The human body is naturally inclined to follow the will of the past. But when we take hold and override the consciousness of the body – the physical manifestation of our reality – then we can redirect and override the natural instincts of time and space to go round and round again.

What is it within the memory that keeps the cycle going round and round again? It is the need to return to itself. The need to reactivate memory, and the need to become one with the sameness that keeps the cycle going that keeps the endless repeat of life and death, day after day, manifesting as your reality.

And so what is it to remember more than who you believe you are? It is to open the doorway – the Gateway – of your mind to become something else, something more than who you believe you are. To become ‘what’ you are. Only ‘what’ you are is outside the loop of the past, beyond time and space. Beyond reality, as it were.

Only ‘what’ you are can redirect your thinking, your physical attributes of life, your power of undertaking, that will actually change the manifestation of reality you experience day after day.

To become ‘what’ you are is to remember from whence you came, and where you need to go. One’s purpose is derived from the greater memory that one has within, and when one taps into that greater memory and becomes it, and represents the light of ‘what’ you are through the physical consciousness, then the aeons of time can no longer hold you and the time and space relativity no longer controls you; the way ahead is aligned to the Real exit from the sameness that you are experiencing as your life every day.

There is a chamber of memory with inside each one of us that was placed there before you came here, for you to enter within. And that memory must be reactivated for you to become aware that you are so much more than who you believe you are.

And that ‘what’ you are is the saviour you have been looking for. All outward action comes from an inner awareness. Only then are you on your pathway home, and your pathway to a greater purpose of which you seek.

That is all.”

I would like to ask you a question – do any of your memories or experiences in your life that keep re-occurring feel like they do not belong to you? Do you have recurring patterns of experiences? People? Jobs? Relationships? Do you sit down sometimes and question … why does this keep happening? What is going on?

We are all familiar with the concept of karma. Of course we are. Karma is a very well understood topic by people who dig a little bit deeper into what life is about. It is a part of the human experience. We have all lived before, and we will all live again. That is the nature of time. We all have an energy of a soul and spirit from before and during this life, and we will continue on after we depart this life. We have lived past lives that explore different lifestyles, ideas, concepts, different emotional stages and levels of awareness of what life is.

And so karma is in essence the opposites of the human equation. How we deal with fear, power, grief. How we deal with so many things such as happiness, giving, love and rejection – so many things the human condition and experience encompasses. We move from one experience to another, learning, observing and exploring the journey called life.

There is a magnetic return energy with karma – of course there is. Everything goes round and returns in smaller and then ever widening circles of experience. It is called the magnetic law. The rotation of compliance. The Journey Home book speaks about this and other associated topics in great depth.

For this blog, let us just focus on karma. What if not all of the memories you hold – and therefore not all the feelings and experiences you believe you have had – belong to you? What if some of the memories you hold were never supposed to be yours? Could this explain why things that re-occur in your life make you scratch your head and ask, “Why is this happening to me again?” and “What possible value is there in this again for me to learn from this?”

Often, in my experience and in the experience of many people I help, there does not seem to be a point to some of the memories uncovered.

Let’s cross over to a different topic for a moment. Let’s talk about time. Now, you know how much I love to talk about time so let’s just spend a moment on it. You have heard me mention before that time does not actually exist, and yet we all live our life like it does. That makes it an even more fascinating subject! So let us take the reality of what ‘time’ actually is – the passage from one memory and moment to the next. You have heard me say before that all time is also simultaneous – the past and the future, our past lives and future lives, are all happening right now, as you read this, on different frequencies of this experience and in different locations in this space. Time does not exist, but all memory does.

The movement of our consciousness ‘through time’ gives the perception that time is passing. But at the end of it all, time itself does not exist. It is a loop of memory. But was it really meant to be this way?

The thing about time is that the past creates the future, and the future creates the past. But if you take a look around you in your life, I would ask you one question – does the world seem right? Does it seem in balance? Does it seem everything is where it should be? I would expect everyone would have to say “No”. For anyone who said yes, I would say you are not looking hard enough.

The world is not in balance. It is in fact grossly out of balance .. in the wrong direction. So many things in this experience called life are geared towards power, manipulation and unfairness. When we look at that, we have to then take a look at time. If time is a series of memories that all exist at the same time, and the past affects the future .. and the future affects the past .. then they are mutually inter-dependent. Which simply means they need each other.

As conscious human beings, we do not readily and consciously have a memory of the future available to us. So what happens when the future (one that is the result of an out-of-balance reality) actively connects to the past? Because the past actively connects to the future. But what does this have to do with memory, and what it does it have to do with karma?

Let us look at it this way – the program of life, the energy of life, the cycle of life, the sameness of life .. is determined to stay the same. The powerful are in power; the powerless are without power. That is the rule here. So therefore, the future has the advantage point of visibility across the history of time including our now. What if it actively imprinted memories deep inside our psyche? What if it imprinted memories and experiences, even lifetimes, into our past and reflected those memories back to us again – like a mirror – into our now so we believe things that never actually happened, did happen.

What if our responses based upon uncertainty, unsureness, remorse and fear are dis-empowering us so we cannot see the true beauty and true depth, strength and clarity of who and what we are? What if some of the things we hold onto every day, in every part of our life … were simply not true? We would need to re-evaluate. We sure would.

And so, we look at karma as a very real aspect of an energy of experience recurring from one life to the next, from one experience to the next throughout the history of mankind, in order to gain awareness for the sole as part of a sole group as we all travel along a spiritual journey that is called humanity. But then we need to also have to look at a system of life we live in now, that is cyclic and does not want people to change.

Do you want a better future? I’ll bet you do. Do you want the best future you can have? Absolutely you do.

That being the case, I would ask you to take a look. Be open. Take a look at your life, at the psychic pattern of things that happen in your life. Take a look at the things you experience, the members you have, the feelings you have got, and ask yourself … do they make sense?

If the answer is ‘maybe not’, then perhaps reality itself is trying to keep you in an old program. Perhaps the future is trying to maintain a powerbase that is out of balance.

That being so, it makes it so important to look deeply within ourselves. To look deep within the real memories we carry of what we really are. Only our inner self, our real memories, our real self can determine what is real to us.

I have had so many people uncover memories and feelings, entire lifetimes through intuitive readings I have done, psychic readings and timeline readings … where their memories do not match the reality of what is happening, and what is happening cannot be traced back to karmic memory.

There is something fundamentally wrong with the memory structure of life. And so I ask the simple question – does everything you experience in life make sense? Do the cyclic and repetitive patterns that perhaps because you grief, strain and confusion keep you in the same space unecessarily? Spinning around, trying to figure it out? Maybe, just maybe, there is nothing to figure out at all.

Maybe a new future is available when we take a moment to understand we are more than the memory we are created to be.

We have inside of us something very special that will lead us to a new future, that will bypass obsolete and false memory .. and we have something inside of us that will show us the way.

The Journey Home is built upon the energy of awareness and remembering. Knowing what we are, deep inside, so the depth of awareness can come to the surface and change who we are so much for the better. It can show as the Gateway to our mind to leave the sameness and the old life behind. Our inner being can make every aspect of who and what we are, real. It can help us bypass the time loop to have a new future, to travel somewhere else where there is an exit from the sameness of our life.

I hope the question of karma, memory and cyclic patterns perhaps raises a new question inside of you.

Without understanding the difference between ‘who’ you are and ‘what’ you are, one cannot move anywhere new. ‘Who’ we are – the self – is a product of thought and memory that allows us to live and exist within life itself. Very important! Of course it is.

However, it is ‘what’ we are that is Real. It is the energy beyond life, beyond thought and memory, beyond time even that is both where we have come from, and where we all return to .. after all, it is ‘what’ we are.

This video is both informative and visual, so best to watch this one, rather than just read it. I hope you enjoy. Remember, what you are is ‘you’ beyond the identification of our ‘self’. Listen inwardly, and I hope to hear from you – Jason.

We exist within a chamber of memory. It is hard to define the structure of reality we live within from the inside. So whether we call that a program, or a construct, a dream or a cube – it is all the same. What matters is that we understand the concept. Because from with inside reality, we cannot see it as we would from the outside. We do not have the capacity to truly define our reality. So we must rely upon what comes from beyond our reality to define the reality we exist within.

And so we have to look at having a conversation that allows us to understand the nature of our reality from a higher perspective, rather than define it simply with our consciousness. We exist inside a chamber. Let’s call it a chamber because it is a container of memory. We exist within a chamber of memory. Time is an experience within this chamber of memory. Our past, our future – it all exists as memory. We move through memories as a conscious sentient being experiencing the passage of one memory to the next.

We experience that movement as time, but time itself does not exist. We are aware of its passage because of our relativity to memory. And so when we look at our reality we look at a single fact: we exist within a construct of memory, and our lives are the movement of memory through the experience of the creation of life, contained within a chamber of memory that we call “reality”.

From within this reality we see so many aspects of reality that are relative only to our own perception, and to our own thoughts and experiences. When we look at the entirety of this construct of reality, this chamber of memory, the fact we only perceive around 1/10billionth of what we can identify with our eyes, ears and physical senses is an important point in understanding why it is so important to delve deeper inside our very being, our own minds and the greater part of ourselves. That part is totally aware, and is able to see all things. The repetitive nature of life itself. The cyclic movement of memory and events we experience as an all-too-familiar rotation of compliance to the sameness that is called expectation of life.

But what if we stopped expecting life to be what it is? What if we started expecting nothing, and started to experience life through the light of what we are? And through the light of what we are were able to be aware of our own higher mind, our inner being, and to be aware there is so much more beyond our life and our perception of self then we ever thought possible.

Why is it that we dismiss the thoughts and feelings that there has to be more, that this can’t be all there is? What happens after we die? What happens that we don’t understand whilst we are alive? These questions are so important. Why is it that we dismiss them through our life because we don’t have time to answer them, or we become inundated with expectations of our life from ourselves. Therefore, we don’t “take time” to “make time” to “have the time” to be quite within, and to move our focus to an inner part of ourselves, and to become aware of a deeper part that is available and can give us answers – a higher level of ourselves that sees things oh, so clearly.

And so we have to make a choice. That choice is whether we remain within the expectation of life, moving through memory, one thought to the next, one cycle to the next, one expectation to the next. Infused and confused by the influx of life and memory all around us.

Or, we make a choice to stand still and open our mind beyond the memory that we perceive. Beyond the person we believe we are. And we give ourselves permission to ask those questions again.

Who are we really? Why are we here? How did I get here? And where am I going? What is it that drives me to think and wonder and feel these things? Can I release my expectations upon myself, and have no perception of reality so I can understand and become aware of something more than who I believe I am?

And if I can do that, who will I become? And that is the most powerful and interesting thing of all. Because to become something more than who you currently are, to awaken what you are from within, is surely the greatest movement you can make within this reality. Because reality itself then takes on a new dimension of awareness. And the true movement you have made by standing still and going within is greater than any movement you can make outwardly, bypassing thought and memory. Bypassing the cyclic nature of this program, this chamber of life and memory. Entering a new corridor of existence that allows you to observe what was, and move through memory with a higher awareness and a deeper understanding than what the past – as memory – will ever offer up.

After all, this reality has one job and one job only – to maintain the sameness at all costs. By asking the question and giving yourself permission to ask it, you have one job only. And that is to remember that you are more than who you believe you are, and that what you are will take you on a new journey. Open up a new program to travel through this chamber of memory to somewhere new.

So instead of time moving through you and carrying you along with its thought and memory, you take on the awareness of what you are and you move through time instead.

I want to talk about where you belong. So many people wonder about where they have come from, and where they are going. Sometimes life itself makes us question where we belong, and is there something else? Is there more? Why are so many always searched for something? Why has almost no-one ever found the answer.

The nature of our reality is questionable. There is no doubt about that. Wherever we look there are inconsistencies. There are things that promise fulfillment and guidance and yet never deliver.

So where do we go? What do we do to answer the burning questions that drive us, and yet meet an obstacle or a void in the outside world, in this place that’s called life.

To find answers, we have to go within. That is the only place where we will find the answers we seek. And so the question of where do we belong is an important one. We are all experiencing this thing called ‘life’. We have all come from somewhere, and we are all going somewhere. But where is that? Or when? Or what?

Most people have an idea of their soul. We all have something inside us; an energy system that fills us with something more than we can perhaps relate to our everyday life. The words “soul mate” and the “evolution” of our soul – these phrases and words raise questions, but what do they actually mean?

When we come back to the question of “Where do we belong?”, what does the soul mean in relation to this? Do we all come from the same place? No. And why should we? The human existence is not a singular existence that starts and stops with birth and death. We all have come from somewhere. We all have a soul that moves into our body and out again. Perhaps our soul – or more accurately, our energy – is the greatest clue that our life is not all there is, that we do indeed belong .. somewhere else.

This is why at The Journey Home, ‘home’ is not a single place or time. Home is a state of remembering. It is a cornerstone of the light of awareness that takes us into a place inside to our deepest memories. We have we come from? Where do we belong? How do we open up more of the memories we have inside so we can in fact understand where we are going.

The soul is often misunderstood. Many believe we will have a soul, and whilst we certainly do, souls also operate in soul groups. Soul groups are not singular. A soul can have multiple experiences through a multiple of people all at the same time. People can be sharing the same life, like husband and wife, or they can be a life that is one of a multitude of people in different time frames of the past or future, in the now, in different countries – all a part of the soul group – all having different experiences with which the soul combines those experiences to learn and to understand.

It is really about remembering. Because we also have to understand we all are One. We all came from the same point to begin with, and different places along the journeys we have taken. Therefore, descending into matter or personality vehicles like our conscious human ‘self’ is really a step away from where we came from. A step away from ‘what’ we really are.

The soul is an experience within the human life-cycle, repeated many many times in what is called ‘evolution’, and to a karmic range of experiences to understand the separation value of life itself to experience multiple memories through multiple vehicles.

But what if beyond the soul there is a spirit? The spirit is commonly misunderstood as being the soul, because perhaps the soul also belongs to a greater energy. So what if our human being has within it an energy that belongs to something beyond itself that is greater, that is not singular. Even what we are belongs to something else as well .. and so it goes.

Perhaps the journey of the soul is only a small counterpart of a much bigger picture.

That is the cornerstone of understanding, as to why we should ask the question as to where do we belong. We will have memories of our lives, and those who enquire deeper beyond the surface of the life and reality we live often have memories that don’t align to this life. They often have memories that go to other lives. Sometimes to other places, and often those other places don’t align to a life on earth. Confusion reigns for some. Exaggeration reigns for others.

But we have to be aware – where we belong may not be where we think we belong. Whilst we only believe in our humanity, and we are not open to other ranges of energy and experiences, life and light beyond our life, we may never understand or remember the Real nature of who and what we are.

The most unnatural aspect of life is that it ends, in that it started out of nothing.

So, for life to truly represent the real and true nature of all things, it is important to understand life came from somewhere and will go back to somewhere. But the journey in between those two points is a fascinating one. Full of experiences, thoughts and dimensions. Life and beyond life. We certainly do not want to be stuck in a never ending loop of the sameness of belief systems, imagery, memory and illusion.

So as for the question, “Where do we belong?”… do not lock yourself into an image of heaven or a version of life or an afterlife that suits just the personality. What people call heaven is really a dimensional energy of transition from this life to the next, or to somewhere else.

There is so much more! The experience of memory is about going within, quieting the mind, tapping into the real memories we hold inside. This can take us beyond where we ever imagined, and to places more wonderful and even more familiar than the life we currently live.

The questions we often ask about the point of our life, our purpose and what it all means are so important. When we start to us the question, “Where do we belong?” is when we start the journey home to seek answers to those very questions we have inside.

The Journey Home is about remembering that we are more than who we think we are. It is about challenging our beliefs, because sometimes when we believe in something outwardly so strongly it is because we know something deep inside that we just haven’t been able to touch.

In the discovery of what you are, you have to look at your core beliefs. Many of us form rigid beliefs, some built on hope, others built on perception, culture and tradition, social expectation and even self image. But beliefs of any kind will always cloud our judgement. If we are not careful, we can drown the inner voice that is crying out or inner memories screaming to be heard.

Maybe you have dreams you don’t understand, or feelings that come from inside you about the world and your place in it. Perhaps you wonder about beyond life, beyond tomorrow. Beyond the planet, or even beyond understanding. If we hold on too tightly to beliefs we run the risk of never getting in touch with our true self.

The way we feel, the way we think and the way we perceive life is equal to the way we perceive ourselves. If we want to move forward in our journey of life, and start to understand what our life is for – what it is about – then we have to look at our perception of ourselves. That means journeying beyond our beliefs.

If we grip too tightly to how we perceive the world and ourselves, we will never ever allow ourselves to understand what else we hold. Because if you are looking to understand the purpose of your life, gain inner peace or an inward understanding – even reading this right now in search of one or all of those things – maybe you have something within you that is very important, very special, that needs to be understood.

So the Journey Home is a discovery of the light within; the light of awareness. The light of what is real and true. What does that mean? It means the inner ‘you’.  The original ‘you’.  The real ‘you’ .. and more. We cannot feel a need to know or a sense that something is missing, or an ache to remember without knowing it already, somewhere deep inside. Otherwise, it would not be remembered at all. It would be learning, and the Journey Home is not about learning anything. It is about awareness, and true memory. That is what remembering is.

And so the Journey Home is a very personal thing. It is very powerful. It will challenges you to the very core whilst lifting you to the highest places. It is worth the ride. To many, it is a relief to understand their thoughts and feelings .. and to understand you are not alone.

So within the words and the meditations contained within the books and audio available on The Journey Home website, is the message that within the inner parts of you there is a flame that flickers. The Journey Home is about allowing that flame to burn brighter and grow in awareness so you, too, can fully remember.

I welcome you to the Journey Home. To those who remember, it is the only thing that truly exists. Life holds so many images and fallacies, it tells so many lies. It expects so many things. It often demands obedience and loyalty to comply with the sameness for no particular reason other than it is the way it is ‘has to be’ or is the way ‘it has always been done.’ There is no growth in that!

And so, it is about finding what is true and real inside YOU so you can find what works for you. After all, it’s your life. And when you find what is true inside yourself, that state of awareness – even memories – are what will reveal you you have the strength to take back your life and your journey. You don’t have to take one more step in your life without it being a part of your return journey to be ‘who’ and ‘what’ you really are.

The joy of the journey home is the joy of freedom. It is the love of remembering that we are all one. It is something very real, and it will take you forward in your life with a profound sense of purpose. What you always felt but perhaps never understood becomes a catalyst for you to finally remember who and what you really are.

As part of the Journey Home website, we will be releasing an ongoing series of guided meditations and online programs, blogs, podcasts and inspired discussions – all dedicated to The Journey Home and dedicated to uncovering what is real within each and every one of us.

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When I was a young man I used to look up and wonder what on earth I was doing here.

I was never someone who found a purpose or a place. I always felt like someone displaced; someone who stood on the edge of a group of people, but never in the middle. In society, but not of it. The things I wondered and thought about the world – its people, the stars, life itself and what it’s all about … didn’t seem to really cross peoples’ minds for more than a moment before they went back to the things that interested them .. and bored me. That made me feel even more alone.

I started to wonder whether there was even something wrong with me. Was it just that I didn’t ‘get it’? Was it something that everyone else just seem to ‘know’ but I just couldn’t get a handle on?

Everyone seemed so content and focused on what mattered to them, or what took their attention. Everyone seemed to know what activity or job or interest mattered to them, what they were interested in, what they wanted to do. All the things that constitute what you call ‘life’.

But it was never really ever something that I could define for myself. I certainly couldn’t understand it in a way that made me feel I had some type of relationship with life, let alone a feeling of finding my place. Peace even. I never did.

When I was very young, about 9, I knew I wanted to be an aeronautical engineer before I even knew how to spell the words, or really even know what that would mean to other people. All I knew was that it was to do with craft to move amongst the skies or stars, or something like that.

I really had no idea. Just a knowing. It was as if it was a memory. I drew, I wrote, I wondered .. always these things seem to be based anywhere but here.

When I was 18 I lived with my parents in a separate living area off the main house. It was an old extension, and I had to go out the old back door and down a short, covered flight of stairs to get to my ground floor bedroom. It was a fairly large room with a lovely fireplace. It sounds impressive, but really if you could see it you’d see it wasn’t. Halfway down the stairs that day, I stopped dead. I felt something that stopped me mid-step.

The best way I can describe it to you is .. it was a ‘sound’. A vibration. it started to shake what I now know was my energy field. We all have an energy field, but I was not really aware of it then. Anyone who knows about energy fields (there are not many, I can tell you) will tell you it is our first and most sensitive response to anything that happens. I could feel the pulsation of this sound. It was so strong I had to reach out and steady myself against a brick wall, I felt so off-balance.

Suddenly, I felt an unmistakable sensation come over me. It was a knowing. A total knowing. I knew I was here for something ‘big’. Something important. Not that I was important. Not at all. I was a part of something that mattered more than .. anything! It made me feel extremely ‘aware’ .. and shaken. Moments later the sound faded, and it was all gone. I was left there on the stairs, standing in shock, wondering what on earth had happened.

From that moment onwards the feelings I’d always had became stronger. Much stronger. I needed to know even more about the purpose of it all. I felt desperate. Have we lived before? What is life? What is beyond what we can see? Beyond the skies? Why does everything in this life and world seem just so off-key, even wrong, in this place that we call planet Earth? Why do I feel like I do? Do others feel this way? What am I looking for? What do my dreams mean? Where am I? Who am I? What am I? I even got to the point where I started lying on our tin shed roof, looking up at the stars and waiting for something .. anything to happen that would give me a clue or an answer of some kind.

Looking back, I smile at my naïveté. And yet there is a very serious side to this. I hoped and unexpected answers to come to me; to match my thoughts and feelings based on my science-fiction imagination and the fascination that I have. But nothing came from the stars, at least not in those stars.

But something did come from beyond them.

A few years later, in 1993, after attending many more discussion groups, workshops and meditation sessions I continued to do my own research into dreams, past lives, energy, quantum physics, holographic theory, spiritual enlightenment… you name it. So many fascinating subjects, bit unfortunately nothing offered solid answers to what I felt. So many were standing still, thinking they were reaching the epitome of their new age philosophy. But every time they fell short with answers to basic questions. I kept searching, and eventually through a friendly couple who ran a meditation class, I stumbled upon a workshop being run by a renowned lady who, I was told, was pretty amazing. She was, and more. Many years later, I would become her husband. Her name was Diane.

Diane was a highly respected medium, powerfully accurate psychic and researcher. She was running a full day workshop called “The Brotherhood of Light”, helping people to start to remember we are not alone here, and we are all connected beyond the individual self. Diane spoke about light being is all there really is, for to be aware – to be enlightened – is to remember the energy of ‘what’ we are is a total remembering beyond our self identity. The awareness of what is Real. And so the workshop was about touching the true memory of ‘what’ we really are, beyond our perceptions of personality and self-identity.

That began a journey for me I could never have imagined. Over the years I heard and experienced things that challenged all of my preconceived ideas and sense what was real, and what was illusion. It filled my heart. These experiences made me look into the very depth of who I was as a person, and so far beyond it. I learned how to reach beyond my thoughts into my feelings. Into the innermost part of my own being. To remember ‘what’ I really am beyond who I believed myself to be.

That journey has been the most precious and revealing, rewarding, humbling and exciting journey. That’s why it’s called “The Journey Home” for anyone who chooses to take it.

As you will see from The Journey Home website, my wife Diane had already been on her journey for 15 years before I met her. That was 27 years ago. Diane and I spent nearly three beautiful decades together as we researched what reality is, and explored and experienced what is beyond it.

Diane pioneered new levels of awareness. She went beyond boundaries of belief and delved deeper to research the mind and energy beyond anyone that I know of, anywhere. Diane never stopped, and always kept asking questions. We looked into the very nature of reality of life on planet Earth.

I found answers to questions of how I feel, and why I felt that way. Where I come from, and why.

There is more going on here on planet Earth than anyone realises. The Journey Home is about not only remembering ‘what‘ we really are, remembering why we are here.

Diane was an explorer of consciousness, an investigator of energy and a warrior for truth. She never stopped, and nor will I.

If the message of The Journey Home touches something inside of you from this website and Diane’s books and meditations, through her voice or perhaps even through mine .. then something is awakening inside you. Perhaps you can discover you need to go through the centre point of your own inner mind to find where home is.

I was shown we can journey to the places we are looking for when we go inwardly. We can travel with our mind, we can move within our memories. We can journey through light-stream travel of consciousness to places our physical self could never reach. Why are we looking outwardly, when all our answers are inside us.

Home is a state of awareness, accessible through our own inner being. The answers are within the memory of ‘what’ we really are. After we let go of all imagery all that’s left is what is real.

For those who choose to take responsibility for the reason why they need to remember, then I say welcome to The Journey Home.

It is what we experience that is real. It is what we experience that determines the nature of how we see reality – what’s possible, or what’s not. That is what determines how we ‘see’ reality. How we see what is possible. How we interpret the events around us, and within us.

When we look at ‘reality’, how foolish is it for anyone to view the world we live in based on the preconceived ideas of what others think! Surely an experience is far more credible than what conventional belief systems tell us. Because, whilst subjective, aren’t experiences still actual? They are not merely stories you find it a book – they happen. And aren’t belief systems often just temporary opinions entrenched by popular culture or popular science? I call most of it dogma or ‘convenient science’. What can be considered fact one day can be recognised as incorrect the next. What is often considered ‘heresy’ can later be hailed as ‘revolutionary’. How easily one can be ridiculed trying to open peoples minds, only to be remembered as extraordinary when they were no longer with us. I would rather we look at what is Real in the Now. Why wait! Surely it’s our experiences that tell us how things work and what is possible. It is our experiences that show us what we are capable of, how to define ourselves and the world we live in.

Talk to anyone who has had an experience, and they can tell you in great detail what it was, what happened and what it means to them. It shapes how they view themselves and the world. But talk to someone who has not had an experience but instead bases their understanding on a belief system and all they can give you is an image. Perhaps it is something they’ve simply grown up with, read or been ‘educated’ about. However, it is only a version of a version. A belief. An adopted opinion. Regurgitated information based on acceptability or cultural, social or peer group pressure.

Perhaps its time we stop thinking so much, and start becoming aware.

If we define our reality by our experiences and how we relate to them, we open up so many channels of discovery. New ways of understanding. New levels of awareness, both about ourselves and about the nature of our lives. So surely .. experience determines ‘reality’.

There are literally millions of experiences documented and shared over the decades past that go unexplained. Why? Just because conventional ‘knowledge’ or ‘science’ can’t answer them? That’s ridiculous. And this being so, doesn’t it say more about the lack of credibility of the ‘knowledge base of science’? Why should ‘convention’ bring into question the validity of unexplained experiences when so many people have them? Especially when they show us that reality, time and memory is not what we are taught to believe it is.

Perhaps if we took all the people over all the years who have had experiences that cannot be explained by mainstream knowledge .. and put them all together. We might find there are so many they might be the majority after all! Experience should have the casting vote over the so-called ‘definition of reality’ we are told is factual. Because what is conventional fact when it comes to the unexplained? It is irrelevant – that’s what it is. Conventional facts are simply the rules of resistance to stop further investigation. Fences to stop you wandering into the truth.

Let’s take a simple example. If I have an experience where, say, I lose time. I can’t explain it, and it cannot be rationalised away despite many valiant efforts to do so. My experience showed me time is not constant or fixed. It showed me time is fluid. It showed me time is subjective, and my consciousness played a major part in it. Perhaps there were other energy influences, forces or anomalies involved I could not see or measure? It tells me many things that I both do and don’t know. And both are important. And so it is the experience that tells me there is an understanding of reality that allows me to see what time is .. or more importantly what time isn’t. Now I have an appreciation and an openness that my experience showed me more about the nature and illusion of my reality than I ever realised.

If I simply read a notion of time in a physics book that tells me time is a linear measurement interwoven with forces such as ‘gravity’ and the photonic energy of light .. what then? This version of reality, created by somebody’s meticulous “rubber ruler” calculations and concepts doesn’t even come close to explaining my simple experience. So how can I apply it to what I just experienced? I cannot. Because conventional thinking is really good at telling us what is not possible and what cannot happen, and what I experienced cannot and does not happen .. but it just did. So who is mistaken? Certainly not the person who had the experience.

No matter how credible it appears in a book, when it comes to the true nature of reality what if what is written does not explain a simple experience of someone else’s reality? Then it is incomplete. And if it is incomplete, should it be the guide as to what determines reality? No.

So what determines reality? We do. The person who had the experience about time going fast or slow, backwards or forwards. The person who knows what they saw when no-one else believes them. The person who knows what they feel, even though they cannot explain it. The person who has memories they cannot explain that don’t fit into who they believe they are. The person who keeps an open mind .. that truth is an ever changing movement of awareness.

If you have had an experience, YOU are the person who has a greater hold on what is real than any person who never had the experience at all.

Remember that. Do not doubt yourself, ever.

Becoming aware - The Journey Home

I want to talk about ‘becoming’. So many want to become ‘something’ or ‘someone’. They want to become spiritual, or enlightened. More aware. Whilst the desire is genuine and the intent is admirable, perhaps we need to look at the question, “Why do we want to become anything? Aren’t we already that anyway? Haven’t we just forgotten? That is what so much of this is about.

Life is not absolute. We have all come from somewhere to enter our physical bodies – this memory shell we call our personal identity – and we have all entered into our physical self from somewhere. Some call it the spirit, some caught it the soul. There are many names for it, and yet all are images. Through many experiences over many years, Diane and I came to understand our energy as ‘what’ we are coming from beyond who we believe we are. Our real energy that we are beyond, and were before being born into, this life. The energy of what is Real that resides within us all in this very moment.

So if we are already ‘what’ we are we .. we can’t become it, can we? Because we already are it. It’s a matter of unbecoming who we think we are to take off the layers and return to what really exists in the first place.

If we live a life within an awareness of what we are, not who we think we are behind all of the layers of personality, culture, community, perception, fear, power, justifiable memory, and all the rest of the images .. we forgo these layers that make up who we think we are. Who we define ourselves as, and who we allowed others to define us as, in order to be a ‘human being’. But we were not human before we came here, and we won’t be human after we leave, so why should we get so stuck on one singular memory?

If we take all of these layers away, all that is really left is what we are. So we can’t work hard to become spiritual. We can’t find ourselves. Because how can we find ourselves, when we are already here! We have to unravel the imagery that we have bundled up and called our truth.. and let it go.

That is really what life was about so much of the time. So many live a truth that becomes a reality. But truth is like a layer. Layers of who we are that take us away from what we are. Truth is simply imagery. Perceptions. Conveniences of the moment, or our personal or collective history that form an ideology or value. Then we form a personal identity based on culture, family, life itself. But it is never what is Real.

Many years ago we were told “truth is an ever-changing movement of awareness” because truth can and does constantly change.

So how can you find who or what you really are based upon a truth, when truth is always changing? You cannot. Some may say, “No, truth doesn’t change. Truth is truth.” But truth does change. Because what you believe one day, after an event or circumstance or new piece of information, will change the next day. What is ironclad one day, is fluid the next. So truth is an ever-changing movement of awareness – and this definition is not a ‘truth’ either, it is an observable fact through time.

That being so, our identity – our ‘truth’ of who we are – is therefore not true. It is just an image. Collated, rationalised, created .. programmed even, by all of our experiences, and the input from oneself and one’s thoughts and outer life.

As we look at the journey of becoming ‘aware’, becoming illuminated and spiritual, this journey will fail before it even begins. Why? Because you’re only going to add on more layers of imagery on top of who you already think you are. You are just going to become who you think you are plus another layer of awareness on top of that, and another layer of perception on top of that. Where does it stop?

No wonder so many people find themselves so far away from their Real inner being. Lost in ego or importance. Lost to imagery. Lost to forgetfulness. Desperation.

So what if you went the other way? What if you decided you needed to become aware by forgetting who you think you are? Stop adding on. Peel off the layers. Undo the images. Decouple the perceptions.

What if we let more go in order to find the actuality of what we really are beneath it all? So becoming doesn’t become an experience of ‘attaining more’ in an effort to measure how much we need to do or how many more truths we need to find to become wise. What if letting go of illusionary images .. reveals what is Real?

That is letting go in order to remember.

So you don’t become anything. You return to the awareness of what you always were.. and still are. You had just forgotten.